So, a few weeks ago I was asked by a friend, Dayle Rogers, to participate in a blog hop. I’m still learning about what it is, but simply put, it’s a way to learn about new blogs and introduce others to your blog! I feel honored that Dayle, a woman I met several years ago while I was working at Cru Headquarters in Orlando, wanted to include me in hers! Her blog is Tip of the Iceberg and I’d love for you to check out some of her writings!
So, for this blog hop I’m to respond to a few questions. I hope they help you get to know me a little more and why I write!
1. What am I writing or working on?
This is a loaded question, what I’m working on in writing is documenting a story that is still very fresh as it unfolds in my life. I began writing because I wanted to write about how our lives are but a vapor in light of eternity and how that affects the way that we live and who we live for. My writing quickly evolved into a very fresh experience of the reality of that vapor as my first daughter was diagnosed in the womb with a fatal disorder that would not allow her to live long once born. So, I began to write about grief, hope, joy, loss, celebrating life and how all those seemingly opposite things can co-exsist and bring great richness to one’s life as we look to Jesus. I thought what I began writing about may begin to change as we buried our firstborn daughter and begin to walk through more intense grief and watched God begin to restore and heal our broken hearts. 8 months later we found out our 2nd daughter, that I am currently carrying has a different fatal disorder that still will not allow her to live long once born. So, now I still write about grief, hope, joy, loss and celebrating life but I’m also writing about who God is in the midst of deep disappointment, when dreams are shattered and our expectations for how our lives would turn out are far different from reality. And for some crazy reason, I’m letting others into this story that is being written for our lives in the hopes that it would bring joy and hope to those who choose to enter in and above all else that this story would point to a far grander story being written by our Creator.
2. How does my work differ from others of this genre?
I write about what I’m experiencing in the freshness of the grief I’m walking through. Yet, it’s not just a sad story that I write about, but one that is consistently infused with hope and joy. I’m a follower of Jesus Christ, I began a relationship with Him many years ago and knowing Him has dramatically affected my perspective in the midst of great pain. This is what makes this story different from many that I have read. And even though I’ve heard many of my entries have brought tears to the eyes of may readers, there is also a sense of hope and joy that comes with my writings. I also write about the celebration of life ,even a life that may be far too short. It’s an odd dynamic of extreme grief mixed with great celebration of life. I don’t try to make sense of how those two aspects of what I’m experiencing co-exsist but simply write about how both are being experienced and how Jesus is meeting me through it all.
3. Why do I write what I do?
Writing is a form of grief work for me. It’s a way of processing the things I’m learning, gaining perspective and remembering what God is doing in my life. But many years ago I became convinced that life is not just about me, that the things we walk through in life are not just for our own personal growth and that an authentic relationship with Jesus is living just that, authentically. So, I write that even the broken pieces of my life may have a ripple effect into the lives of others. I so desire that others would see what it’s really like to walk with Jesus through the ups and downs of life and experience, even if it’s just through writing, authentic Christianity. And I write because I know I’m not the only one walking through grief and loss, I’m not the only one whose story is turning out far differently then I thought, and I want those reading who are walking through something similar to know you are not alone.
4. How does my writing process work?
It’s quite simple, I write what God is putting on my heart to write and I write when I’m able to write. As someone writing in the midst of the freshness of grief I don’t always have the words to say in the torrent of emotions I’m experiencing on any given day. Yet, as the things I’m learning become more clear I keep a running list of ideas and thoughts in my head that I eventually want to put to paper. My hope is that each week, at least one of those ideas makes it to paper. I prefer to write about what is fresh not what I learned yesterday, so that you get my fresh thoughts and fresh wrestlings and so that I get my fresh thoughts and fresh wrestlings! Writing is a way to let others into what God is doing, but it’s also a way I process what God is doing and am rooted more firmly in what He’s teaching me!
So there you go, some reasons why I write what I do!